im Jodine Aidyl C. Ochate

15 yrs old..

Only Child..

A Talented Girl..

CLumsy..

Stupid..

Weird..

Sensitive And Emotional

Since i Was a Child.. i used to play Dolls and never go outside to meet Friends..

My Father was a seaman and so were not that so close..

My Mother works.. in a office and leaves me while im asleep without saying she’s gotta go to work..

so when i wake up i cry and cry..

when she’s home

i was already sleeping.. and she never said goodnight to me..

when i wake up she’s gone again and ill cry again..

that was my lifetime since i was a child..

when its vacation..

i play dolls watch anime and draw.. alone

no one teaches me and i dont have any friends..

i dont go outside and play.. because my tita wont let me out

when i was in gr. 4 i started to develop my talents.. to have my parent’s attentions…

i practiced playing piano in gr.4

playing flute in gr.3

playing guitar in gr.5

playing drums in gr. 6

and playing the harmonica in 1styr hs..

i became the vice president in guitar club in gr.6

and teach gr.3 students when our moderator was out..

it was so very happy.. and i forget all of my problems specially with my parents..

when i show it to them.. all my talents.. i think they were not happy and busy talking with someone..

when they were alone.. when i show it to them they just look at me and chins up.. without smilying.

so i cnt feel that they were proud at me..

when i was in school… im just a quiet student.. and a cheerfull active student..

but when i got to 2nd year highschool..

everything has chnged.. i got a Bf.. and i was madly in love with him..

then.. when someone knows i have a BF.. and he’s 26 y/o today..

someone thinks that im not a virgin anymore and she said to everyone in the campus that im pregnant..

the news spread quickly..

i just smiled and keep quiet

coz i dont know wat da hell was happening!! xD lol

then when i knew the news.. that someone spread a bad message to everyone

i started to cry and cry.. everyday they always ask me the same thing..

and nababaliw na ko uber!!

tapos nun nabuntis lng teacher ko then sabe nya magkakababy n daw sya

nagulat ako napaluha ako at tumakbo sa banyo..

naiiyak ako kse.. ayaw ko n maalala ung issue na un.. hays

then when i told it to my BF no reaction sya..

in game in perfect world.. someone hack him..

and he thought it was me..

(ako lng kc nakakaalam ng password nya)

wew.. then sabe nya tatapon nya n daw diary ko…

sabe ko wag importante sakin yan..

lht ng good memories ko since gr.5 ako andun..

tapos aun tinapon nya na pla

cnampal ko sya pagpunta ko sa knila at umiyak ako na halos muntik n ako mahimatay.. dhl dun lng ako ngiging msaya pag nagsusulat ako sa diary ko

i dont have to tell anyone about wat was happening to me everyday kc nasabe ko n sa diary ko…

cmula nung tinamad n ako mag sulat sa diary..

then nababaliw n ako uber.. kng cnu cnu pinapatulan ko hngng sa mag 2 tymer ako..

then iniwan ko 1st bf ko.. then dun ako sa bago and that was jigs..

i thought mgiging msaya na ako

pero puro pahirap nmn sya

lage ako pumupunta sa knila tapos ako hnd pinupunthan

d ako hinahated pauwe at mas gs2 nya pa mga barkada nya kaysa sakin,

tingn nya lng sakin isng model.. n lge humahabol sa knya..

ayaw nya n ako tumulong sa mga kaibgan nya gs2 nya syalng

he dont believe in me.. he cant trust me..

hays.. T^T aun iniwan ko ren nakakasawa na kc maging gnun..

in family.. well..

since nlmn nila tita un hnd n ako pinapadalhan..ng gmit

wew ewan ko b kng bkt.. xD

hays…

bkt b cla gnun haha..

then lumipat klme sa cavite gnun pa ren mood ko.. hehe

d p ren nagbabago at hnd makaadjust..

tapos uber sentisitive at OA n ako cmula nun..

pti KJ n ako xD takut sa tao..

when i meet a psychologist..

sabe nya lack of attention daw ako

and she’s ryt .. =.=

im really lack of attention..

no one believes in me kundi sarili ko hays *bluff*

hehe hngng d2 n lng kya?XD

Thats Why i cnt write it in My Diary..

kc ang diary ko lng ay pra sa mga goodtyms.. d ko n need isulat dun un.. panira lng sa good memories ko xD

and prob ko n toh since birth no need to remember..

i just cnt adjust..

i cnt go back to my old self..

sabe daw ng psychologist d daw ako magbabago kht saan ako ilagay..

i really dont know saan ako lulugar :((
im lost..

until now… please help me to find myself..

ammmp..kaasar ngaun!!1 ang sakit tlga!!
grabe.. T.T…
“baby dont u know its 4 u..??!! No..No..”
ahuhuhuh!!! iiyak n tlga ako!!
sakit sakit…
weeew.. lalo ng pg napapakingan ko ung
Perhaps Love-Jang Nara..
http://www.imeem.com/people/KJGOHv/music/e…a_perhaps_love/

weew..T.T
im so tired..
share ko n nga lng..
ahmm gn2 eun..

pinagsabihan ko lng sya ng..”bt gnun..ala k n bng ibng masabe??”
(kc puro n lng sya salita..ala syang magandang masabi)
*then i started to cry..*
AKO–”why is it lyk that??gnyan k n lng lge..”
AKO–”lge puro wlaa lng..ala ka bng magndang sasabihin?”
(kc puro love u lng snasabi nya 4kit sad ako dhl.. d nya ako ihahatid pa uwe..and its almost 10pm nun..
nsa fairview p ako uwe ako cavite..layu noh??)
AKO–”lam mu b ang hrap pumunta sa inyu”
AKO–”bkt gnun ako hnd mu kayang puntahan..??pero ikaw..pa VIP ka..kalalake mung tao gnyan ka T.T”
tapos nagalit sya…waaa!!

BF–”cge na jods!!umalis k n..”
BF–”nagiinarte k nnmn eh”
AKO–”im just asking bkt k gnyan??!!Lgeng walang comment..T.T..nagsasabe ako ng ihatid mu ako still..balewala sau..sasabihin mu lng ayaw mu..”
BF–”jods ang layu nyu kc ehh..”
AKO–”ehh kaw nga napupuntahan ko ehh!!bt kaw hnd??!! 5 MONTHS na ako nagaantay na pumunta ka sa min!!wala ka pa rn!!”
BF–”byaan mu pupunta ako dyn..this dec..”
[sabi nya dati Oct pupunta daw sya..asa nmn ako pumunta sya ngaung Dec!!]
AKO–”asaness nmn..hgng salita k lng!!wew~~!!”
BF–”e di wag!! umalis k n nga!!!!@##$%#$!!”
*tapos umalis tlga ako*

HINABOL NYA AKO >,

WaTcHinG Him TryiNg So Hard To HoLd BacK..His LovE WaS SomEtHinG i CouLd’Nt StAnD..

ahihihi… Everyone’s special day is their birthday right?? hehe..

today was his 16th birthday…

but.. i dont know if i cn go to his house today
but suddenly i remembered… what my boyfriend did to me..

on my special day he didnt came…

it was so sad,..lonely day of my life.. thought it would be happy…

so… if i didnt go to his birthday… he would feel the same..

so no choice…

i have to go.. and have to face what i haved promise to him.. ^.^

we ended up being happy…

i realized that..

its being more happy when u make someone happy.. than  making urself happy..

^.^

hehehe finally.. naiintndhan ko c jigs

ahihihi…. jigger pasenxa na kng gnun ako i promise d n ako mgiging gnun

ahihihihi…natutuwa ako matagal ko n hinahanap ung gnun…

sau ko lng tlga nakta ang laht ng pinapangarap ko..

sau lng lht… kala ko 4ever n lng ako mananaginip..

un pala d ko pancn anjan na pla.. naiintndhan ko n ngaun

tanga lng ako..d ko kc nakta agad..

kc puro feelings ko n lng nakikita ko..

sau hnde ko nakikita… pero ngayun…

lam ko na… mas nakikita ko n ang tunay na jigger n kilala ko

ahihihi…bsta d n ako ulit gagawa ng masama i promise…

tama nga c miya ahihi…ang tapang mung patawarin ako…

T______T hayss…. gagu lng tlga ako paxenxa na…

disz time…

ill love u 4ever.. ill love u whole heartedly..

ive love u before and think u wasnt happy to be wth me..

disz time..its my turn..babawe ako

hope ull stay 4ever wth me.. coz u mean more than eternity..

jigger…love u ^^ ahihii..

waaaa…nakasakit sya ahuhuh…T__T

jokes…sa totoo lng nagsakltan kming dalawa^^
nanghingi lng nmn ako ng 1 stage tapos ayaw nya

un nagaway kmi hahaha^^kulit nuh?

tapos aun nauwe sa awayan at tampuhan..

parang aso’t pusa nga kmi sa sm southmall ehh haha

kakahiya tlga xD hehe…tapos nun aun asar n asar ako

d nya alam..pra sa knya un..ahuhuhu

fave song nya kc un ehh,,tentai kansoku..

i practiced so hard to finish that song huhuh..T_T

tapos it all ended up sadly..huhuh

ok lng un…hays nagkaayus nmn kmi agad ehh yey

hahaha^^ un lng

kinuwento ni jigs ang nangyare sa knila nla pau kahapon..

JIGS:haha grabe khapon almost lht cla nahalikan ko haha danda ng laru nmin ehh
JoDS:owss??sayang ala ako..(awts anu ung cnabi ni jigs?)*im starting to worry*
JIGS:ahaha grabe c pau kagabe ehh..blahblah blah..

nung dumating kmi ng gabe sa bhay nila jigs at dumating cla paulo after 1hr..

PaU:jigs haha grabe khpon ehh blahblahblah..
D KO Lm Kng Cnu Ngsabe: jigs dun tyu mag inuman sa bhay nla des..tas laru tyu ulit ng consenquence..
D KO Lm Kng Cnu Ngsabe:sama k n rn michael!!

c Miya bglang nagalala n rn..

Michael:haha try ko sumama
Miya:wag k n sumama..=S
Michael:bkt??
Miya:bsta…

tapos knausap ko c pau

JODS: ui pau wag mu turuan c jigs uminom!!!
PAU:hehe jods natural lng un..
JODS:ammmff…bata p yan ohh!!
PAU:ahaha sumama k n lng kaya inuman tyu…
JODS:ayoko uminom huh??!! bsta wag mung turuan c jigs =S
PAU: hehe d ko lng lam kng iinum yan c jigs

tapos pumyag c jigs n sumama sa inuman nla at dun daw cla magiinuman..

JIGS:geh dun tyu..jods..uwe k n..sasama p ako sa knila ehh..
JODS: huh??sasama k p??!!*napapaiyak n c jods*
JODS:wag k n sumama :’( tulog k n lng pagod k ohh..ala k p tulog..
JIGS:sandali lng nmn ako dun ehh..
JODS:wagg!! ayoko nga!! kng pede sumama ako ehh,.,

tumalikod c jods at umiyak…
nakita ni ate belen c jods n umiiyak at nilapitan ito..

ATE BELEN:bt k umiiyak..??anu gnawa ni jigs sau??
JODS:blahblahblah*private bwal sabihin :P*
JODS:nagaalala lng ako kc ky jigs ehhh ahuhuhuhu!!! T___T

tnawag c jigs sa labas haha…xD at pinapasok sa bhay at knausap ni ate belen…

JiGS:its too late to apologize!!*kumanta pa!!*
JODS:* umiiyak lng no reactions..*
ATE BELEN:bt mu pinayak c jodine??
JIGS:ewan ko b??!! kng bkt yan umiiyak!! ala nmn ako gnawa ehh..
ATE BELEN: ehh bt umiiyak yan nagaalala daw??!!
JIGS:jods bt k b umiiyak??huy!!
JODS:ala kng self control..(u pervert..)*sob sob*
JIGS:ate belen anu ibg sabihin ng apologize??
ATE BELEN: ang apologize ung mag sosorry ka sa knya ng walang nakakakita..
JIGS:ahh gnun b un??gling ahh xD
ATE BELEN: ehh anu ung self control??
JIGS:ung cocontrolin mu ung sarili mu..
JODS:(galeng!!gwin mu nga!! ~_~)
JIGS:nu b yu7n bt k umiiyak..
JEN:jigs una n kmi..

lumabas c jods..sumunod lumabas dn c jigs..

D KO LM KNG CNU NGSBI c dai yta…:dun n lng tyu kna des..
JIGS:cge haha
JODS:porkit ala ako sa tabi mu inaaabuso mu n ako..ala kang self control!! pinapabayaan mu n sarili mu!!T__T *sob sob*

niyakap ni miya c jods…

MIYA:ok lng yan…gnyan dn nararamadaman ko..
JODS:hay..miya sau ok lng nmn ehh..sakin matindi ehh..d makapigil ung isa jn ehh..
MIYA:wag k n umiyak..
JODS:sobrang sakit… T__________T *nanginginig ang boses ni jods hbng cnabi nya un*
MIYA:alam ko ako rn…

nauna n cla lht umalis…..

PAU:bye jods..

hahawakan sana ni pau c jods kaso..umiwas c jods..
tapos.,.nagsolo muna ang dalawa awuuuuuuu!!!

JIGS:jods wag k n umiyak

hinug ni jigs si jods ng mahigpit..(Aww sweet XD)
JODS:kc nmn jigs ehh nagaalala lng ako tlga sau!!
JIGS:cge jods wag k lng umiyak d n ako magcoonsequence..
JODS:*sob* hayyss..bsta wag k gagawa ng masama ah wag k uminom..
JIGS:d n nga ako sasama ehh tutulog n lng ako at dota..
JODS:hays sana nga..=s (lm ko nmn n gs2 nya ehh “kng gs2 may paraan,kng ayaw may dahilan”)
JIGS:kw lng nmn love ko ehh wag k n iyak..
JODS:ahuhuhu ako rn love kta T_Twag mu pabayaan sarili mu ahh..

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perverted jigs!! hay nku..dami kc clang kabastusan n gnagawa ehh kng pede ala n lng d b??mas ok p..un lng..comment lng.. ~_~ im tired of him tlga d ko lng maiwanan kc kawawa!!!

nagaalala lng ako sa knya..=S tnx 4 reading.. T_T

hahaha..ala lng gs2 ko lng mag bulitin :] ahahaha..

la lng..may papatamaan lng ako jan!!

hmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!

kse…ala lng hahah nu kaya un..

aun…c wooT…kse..

masyadong adek sa DM…
nye!!

unA..

knakalimutan nya n lng nga ako minsan ehh hahaha… tapos pg natapos nya ung isang kanta pg 1st tym nya ma S o A
lge syang natutuwa pinopost bulitin nya pa..(pinagmamalaki sa mundo??)
hahaha…kulit tlga nya^______^

PangALaWa!!..

pag may nktang nagimprove..(tulad ni vocalist ng Romance)naasar sya..ewan ko kng anu nsa isip nung lalake n un!!haha..prang..sabi nya..”sus!!prang un lng!!ampp ang bilis nya magimprove!!grrr” tapos ayan!!naasar sya..haha magaadek yan!!

PangaTLo!!

may pumuntang mamaw sa SM..(southmall)aun…naku..gagana nnmn ung ybng nya sa umpisa..pg d p maglalaru..tapos nun pg naglaru na.,.mamaw pla!!manghihina c wooT at magfafailed sa last stage nya..hahaha..!!

galing nya noh..hahaha…yan ung mga negative n ugali sa DM..kaya be careful..

bka MA-KARMA kyu…waheheh,,pis!!!

wooT..love kta pis tyu!!hahahha!!:P
magaling k nga eh wag n humble ^___^

hahaha…mamaya magalit k sakin..hahaha…hug n lng kta bleh

un lng… advice lng!!

wag laki ulo..bka ma karma hehehe,.,

tulad ni wooT hahaha